And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
And so it was. After 10 years in the corporate world I have decided to move to Italy to earn my Master of Gastronomy degree from the University of Gastronomic Sciences. This inexplicable connection and adoration with food is something so intrinsically me that I can trace it back to my youth. This may sound dramatic but every day that I wasn’t using and pursuing my gift in the world felt like I was letting a piece of my soul die each and every day. And not an unimportant part of my soul, but the very essence of why I was placed here on this earth. THAT part of my soul. Have you been there? That place where you know your path just doesn’t feel…right, you, authentic?
A friend told me recently that you have many paths you can be on, but the most important question to ask is this: Does this path have heart? Does it? If so, stay on it. There’s something to learn there. If not, then recognize and know in your heart that it’s OK to pursue a new one. Breathe in the joy of letting go of a path that wasn’t authentically you. It’s not failure but freedom. Freedom to run after a path with heart.
One of the most rewarding parts of health coaching is when my clients find their authentic voices. There is this softness, light, and sheer self-acceptance that comes across their faces. In that moment they let go of what was not serving them and embrace what is good, pure, and true.
And it became time for me to take my own advice and pursue that soft authenticity. This type of soul-searching doesn’t knock you over with a robust embrace. No, it gently wraps you with it’s soft whisper and nudge of, ‘Go, child. I have you and this is your heart’s path.’ That’s the journey I seek and for which I’ll place everything on the line.
I was reading Carlo Petrini’s (Founder of the Slow Food Movement and the University of Gastronomic Sciences) book, Loving the Earth, Dialogues on the Future of Our Planet. In it he interviews different dignitaries and players in the Slow Food Movement. The most touching moment came at the end of his interview with Prince Charles when the Prince pleaded:
Don’t, I beg of you, lose what makes Italy so special, the ancient wisdom and understanding of how to make life itself an art form. To me, this has ben Italy’s most wonderful contribution to the world for so many centuries. The finest demonstration of this is the way you treat food as an art form, how you produce these wonderful and endless varieties of food, cheeses, cured meats, but also your wonderful traditional craft skills in so many areas. Believe you me, we need cultural and spiritual security, but just biosecurity. We can’t separate those elements. What is the point of food security, if we’re losing our souls?
What is the point of it, indeed. I deeply believe that how we come to the table is just as important as what’s on the table. How we eat is how we live. It’s time to have a love affair with our food and with our lives. So I’m going to the cradle of food passion to learn how to do it best. If one thing is true, it’s that we need to bring some passion back to the table, to ourselves, and to our stories.
For the first time in a long time I’m letting go of my incessant need to plan and know and understand. I don’t know what the next step will be. But I do know that this path is nothing but heart. It’s all heart. Welcome to the journey.
So much love,